// To See Your Love Suffer

To See Your Love Suffer is a reimagining of Julian of Norwich’s Revelations of Divine Love, a recounting of the explicit visions of Christ crucified as Norwich lay dying of an undisclosed illness. But she survived. In this reimagining, the internal territories and machinations of the failing body are distorted into various acts the ‘narrator’ uses to enter into further visionary states — dendritic realities, the divergent selves that inhabit them, and the desire that communicates between… or creates them in relation to each other.

// Heliolatry

“
I created a god in me because there was nothing to love

I drew him in inflammation, dreaming slow blood through glass, radiation to tissue, first light and a burn to cast features in carbon or shadow. Ejections of matter in transit mass filth or noble vapor caol dus filaments of woolen ash that seethe in evaporating oceans, curdling the air —
the clouds of flour that come of his breath, asbestos: Greek for unquenchable, inextinguishable
— or the pale lead he bleeds into pain as he white-washes the sky, turns it to heat, distilling a moon dust so fine it settles into me and runs as conductive silt in my blood, draws tangles of magnetic fields that mutate and reform in routes naming the wind hurled out in death throes of breath
And it’s warm on me — parched:
god of dehydration god of calorie

At the end of the sun
“

// Untitled (S/M 3-1)

“
What’s the relationship, the difference, between sacrifice and disposal — gravity, a reverence : love of the executioner for his lamb or how faultlessly the axe falls like light

I’ve a stark thrilled patience in the presence
of an absence meant to amplify and devour me
— backdraft, glass-quick breath of heat
and the iron rain after
“